Silver Roses Poem by Rachel Todd Wetzsteon

The strings, as if they knew
the lovers are about to meet, begin
to soar, and when he marches in the door
they soar some more—half ecstasy, half pain,
the musical equivalent of rain—
while children who have grown up with one stare
steal further looks across a crowded room,
as goners tend to do.

My father loved it too,
warned me at dinner that he'd be a wreck
long before the final trio came
(Ja, ja, she sighed, and gave him up forever):
he found his Sophie better late than never
and took the fifth about his silent tears
but like him I'm a softie, with a massive
gift for feeling blue.

I went with others, threw
bouquets and caution to the whirling wind,
believing that the rhapsody on stage
would waft its wonders up to our cheap seats;
but mirrors can be beautiful fierce cheats,
delusions of an over-smitten mind;
I relished trouser roles until I had
no petals left to strew.

Up, down the avenue
I wandered like a ghost, I wondered why
a miracle is always a mirage,
then plodded home and set back all the clocks,
spent hard-won funds installing strong new locks,
telling myself if violence like this
could never sound like violins, I would
to art, not life, be true.

And I am trying to
fathom the way I got from there to here,
the joy that snuck up when I'd sworn off joy:
we've made a sterling start, we've got a plan
to watch it on your satin couch downtown
and I'll be there upon the stroke of eight,
bearing in my trembling ungloved hand
a silver rose for you.