Silent- I Remain Poem by Silentpoet Grl

i was approached today
by someone so kind and caring
she said, 'you have such sadness,
I see it in your eyes, is everything ok? '
i looked at her so very longingly-
every part of my being was aching,
pleading with myself to say 'no! ,
please, can You help me? '.
-i couldn't - silent instead i remained
it was fear keeping it locked in so tight.
just a quick 'i'm fine' and walked away.
reaching home, You greeted me,
with Your growling voice 'You're Late! '
temper flaring, You tightly grabbed me
Your punishing fist met my face
knocking me to the hard ground
You snapped with no remorse
'get up, I'm not done with you yet'.
regaining myself on shaking feet
i quickly apologize 'I'm sorry'
Your temper raging on like hot fire
pleading, bargaining, promising
i will try so much harder to be better
thinking only to myself- why do You do this?
even more so- what did i do to deserve it?
finally completing what You started
i'm laying ashamed and broken
before You walk away,
in that ever so threatening way
You demand, 'not a single word'.
silent- i Must remain
scared- head nodding in agreement.
'i know, i'm fine'.
alone and trembling, not giving into tears
recalling the Lady so caring, wondering,
if i had missed my chance for life.
the sting in my heart digs deeper
soon understanding so clearly,
if this is how it carries on...
i will be resting in a quieter place,
forever -silent- i will remain.