Should I Or Should I Not Love You? Poem by Sylvia Chidi

I have being cogitating all afternoon
And you may think it is too soon
To feed you love with my spoon
But the ebony night shines a full moon

Taking into consideration
The obvious complications
Should I or should I not love you
As you are meant by me to be loved

The fact that you are a coward
Incapable of moving forward
Just trying to hold me backwards
As you hang in there in your comfort zone
Playing the field only when high on hormones

Only with love ones heart is broken
With sensitivity I need to be open
Should I or should I not love you
As you are meant by me to be loved

People gossip but they do not care
If outside marriage we have affairs
Should I or should I not love you
As you are meant by me to be loved

Think! We have been here before
The aftermath brought forth no cure
Should I or should I not love you
As you are meant by me to be loved

We play with peoples feelings
What we feel we keep concealing
As if reaping sweet fruit by stealing
This to me is simply not appealing
Should I or should I not love you
As you are meant by me to be loved

My feelings for you is my love indication
Upon which you place egoistic restrictions
This is a tender situation
I need to take into consideration
Should I or should I not love you
As you are meant by me to be loved

And if I decide to let you go
It will hurt me slow by slow
In time the pain will go not grow
It is the right conclusion that I know

Or should I close my eyes like a fool
And pretend that everything is cool
While you use me as a comfort tool
Until my eyes open and I refuse your rules

Should I or should I not love you
As you are meant by me to be loved?

And though you claim not at all to be bothered
Even you know, I would’ve loved you like no other!

Copyright 2007 - Sylvia Chidi