Searching Poem by Beau Bennett

I'm just a helpless child
And all I want is to know why
I'm lost in a sea of deprevity
Why is the only thing I want, to die

I bang the dispair away
And all that's left is pain
Have you ever felt the joy
Of watching your life spill out a vein

I'm boiling over now
The flow cannot be contained
I wish I had something to offer you all
But in my heart I know my love is stained

My mind is now so badly corroded
There's no sense in turrning back
So I must cut the reality into me
To realize I'll never have the one thing I lack

I remember a long time ago
I was once someonse pride and joy
At what point did I go wrong
And how did I kill that little boy

I don't want to believe he's gone
I pray he's still inside of me
Maybe one day I'll be worth feeling loved inside
And only then will his beaten eye's be able to open and see

Written By Beau Bennett 08/06/96