Scared Of Being Hurt Again Poem by christopher mcdonald

i cant chang the way i am
because i dont know who i am anymore
my life is like a leaky faucet
constantly running
no more room to hide
the monsters are gonna find me
who knows what they are gonna do
im so scared
im gonna yell
like a bomb with a short fuse
gonna explode the moment its lit
my love has been forgoten along with myself
the family in tears for the son they had lost
why have i been shamed
all the people i have blaimed
for the torture i have commited
i should be commited
no more pain
no more tears
im tired of running from my fears
i have to step up to the plate
and take a stand
be a man
like my father
and the same as his
im tired of crying
and leaking out these tears like a siv
my pain is intence and my life ruined
like after a war goes through a town
leaving it in ruins
i must clean up my mess that i created
and be the person im expected to be