Regret Poem by Rafiqul Anowar

Tonight no more poetry I’ll write,
No words are playing in my brain,
And no texts are making
Any sense in my wish;
Even no emotion for pretty moment
I feel this night.
My heart is full of pain,
As I hurt someone, for many times
Thus I know, I gave her such soreness
Whom I loved much in my life,
Whom I never forget for
a single moment in my life.
I gave her fear and
I became the invisible eyes to her
What she can feel -
but couldn’t see for long time;
Passed the night without sleep
but with horror.
I’d been looking her as an angle of old story
And my wandering was like waving the sword
Into the empty air,
Means nothing to the real world.
Now I'm ashamed of my love,
I hate the way I loved her,
what gave her agony
and the sleepless nights.
I was wrong and drunk
by my own thoughts
Never live through what other side
would feel the acts.
Now I curse my passion,
I blame my selfishness.
Can’t ask the forgiveness
- but disgraced.
I know love is life, but a life
with scariness and horror
Is not a love at all.
My affections that made you cry,
Fantasies became nightmares to you
And I can’t be proud as a lover.
Here my friends are pointing me
as the sinned Ancient Mariner
It’s all about I loved you, and
failed to knock in a right way.
I was wrong in my story,
But the truths beneath my faults,
Nothing has any meaning at all.
My love,
What else I ask, except
The forgiveness for this act;
What else I do, except
Curse my fate in this moment.
So, my pray tonight:
If you wish, please forget,
If you will, please forgive.