.real.And.Pretending. Poem by Elizabeth Tyease Collins

I'm sin,
and i wear a mask with it.(real)

I wear painted on tears
and glass eyeballs,
only for you not to see my true identity.(pretending)


I speak with ignorance and I
walk with grace.(pretending)

I laugh when i cry (inside)
and I cry when I laugh(inside)
I'm insanities inner authority that
makes up the REAL me.(real)

I smile when needed,
and cry when neccessary.(pretending)

I lie when I feel like I need to,
and I'll pretend till i leave this place that's
called home.(real)

Not the blame you say,
not the end as it may,
but pretending these scars
hurt is all i was made for.(real)

I'm sin,
and I wear my insecurities with it.(real)

I am flesh and blood,
and i live and breathe evil,
so even when I smile or seem
sarcastic, my insanity is finally kicking
in. (real)

For you to see,
maybe,
but is too frightned to be hurt.(real)

I'm sin,
and I wear a mask with it(real)