Quiet Pain Poem by May N

flowing gently like the wind
your voice soothes me
calming the stress in my body
relinquishing bad memories in my mind

Quietly, you fade into nothing
leaving me in still silence
as i remember the times long ago
which pierces me with emptiness

wishing it was nothing more than a nightmare
a dream that haunts me every night
but i cannot possibly delude mysself
my heart baches for you every moment

my memories take me back far away
with you laughing joyfully, me at your side
feeling content as we watch the sun set
listening to the music made by our hearts

as i recall present reality once more
pain courses through my being
stabbing me gleefully as thoughts of you linger
punishing my ignorance as my defenses are left open

so i avoid the moments which remind me
living in fear of the pain i often feel
when thoughts of what had been roam
i walk as a shell of painful emptiness