Note I Can'T Hold Poem by Monica O'Connor

2008

You’re in every corner of my memory.
No amount of time could take you away from me.
That look in your eyes swallows me whole,
The same way it always did,
When the day didn’t begin until I saw you,
And I couldn’t breathe until I felt your embrace.
But do I want that?
I don’t want to be so attached, because I’d be attached to the unattainable.
I’m afraid I’ll be dropped again, like searing hot coal from your hands.
I can’t go back to that.
That life was a forever ago,
And forever it shall stay.