#not Ready For Goodbye.. But Yet! I Can't Nourish Her Poem by Iphupho The Dream

Date: Nov 2,2018
Subject: #NOT READY FOR GOODBYE.. BUT YET! I CAN'T NOURISH HER

I admit
It was so good to be true
That I had carried unknown seed in me..
I found out and I was at peace
Finally I would raise the very fruit of my womb
Silly me! I was so excited and scared at the same time..
Mind you... Its as if I have reached my destination
Not knowing she was just a passerby
She wasn't here to stay

I do not know if I should say "Goodbye" or sit here and mourn my heart out
Beg for another chance
Pray for another moment of her to grow and give Me a chance to conceive and raise her
Am I not capable of being a mother?
How am I supposed to know when I'm denied a chance to be one?
Oh! Lord! How do I say Goodbye to her while I'm not even ready to do so?

I know I cannot nourish her
Protect her
Bath her
Play with her
Teach her how to walk
Eat and talk
But I long for a moment to fulfill that
To have a chapter in a book of our life with her
To mother her
To nurture her
Its little bit too late for she is no more..
Will a heart of a maiden be at peace?

I'm not ready for goodbye
Although I know I cannot nourish her
As much as I longed for her to be here
It wasn't my call to make
But that of God.
Goodbye my daughter
Know it was good while it started
The moments I had
Goodbye my rainbow soul
Mommy will always love you...
Goodbye my daughter
Forever I will cherish the months I carried you...
Farewell my beautiful seed
For I can no longer have and to nourish you..
Farewell......
Farewell

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