Not Good Enough (Happy Ending) Poem by ESPN CHICK

Ever tear that falls from my two eyes
Comes from inside my soul
Where its black and cold
Never know when tears will fall
All I ever wanted was happiness
But I'm beginning to believe that
Happiness is not for me
Bout to give up looking for it
Cause its no use anymore
Theres only pain inside
Blackened inside all over
Take me and just throw me over
Cause I know now I've been a burden all these years
Just in the way and no matter what I do
It feels like its not good enough
And what I've become seems like its not even good enough
Even for the people I thought would except me
I wonder how can they be so cold
How can they turn there backs
But its my fault like everything else
No matter what I will be blamed for stupid things in years to come
And I wish I could just die
Compromise with death
Might be the best thing thats ever happened
Faking it everyday the smiles
Covering up my face from the lies I see
And I know that the mirror is right
But I just don't want to face it
Tired of facing this stupid reality life
Nothing ever seems to go right
Wish my life was like a Cinderella story
Where my prince would come and sweep me off my feet
And I would never be sad
I would actually have a happy ending
But we all know that happy endings are two in a million
I might as well wait for death to arrive at my front door
At least I know then that it would be my happy ending

December 31,2007