Non-Faithful Poem by Jay W. Allen

If seeing is believing then they've gouged out all their own eyes.
they're confused by the love, the hate, all of the hypocritical lies

their own misfortunes, creating the selfish disguise;
that will seed the beginning of their spiritual demise

I cant believe this is happening,
my faith depleting somewhere buried inside, alive;

afraid, unstable, but learning that these things will clear in time
Im so scared, Im so scared of what I might become

straying from the beaten path that Ive been on for so long
finally moving forward in life, acknowledging my faults

thats haunted my every move for what seems like years
my conscience screaming, realizing things arent as bad as they appear

still anchored in our old ways

and just when you think everything's going to be alright
defenses down, so vulnerable to what once had you gripped so tight

the miracle I needed, no longer mistreated
the life changing motivation, my only inspiration

calm the storms and ill walk the waves
my eyes are open, and I can clearly see

calm the storms and ill walk the waves!

I cant believe all this is happening to me,
my faith depleting some where buried alive, inside;

afraid, unstable, but learning that these things will clear in time
Im so scared, Im so scared of what I might become

and just when you think everything is going to be alright
Im vulnerable to what once had me gripped so tight