No One Poem by ESPN CHICK

If only I could tell everyone how I feel
Would they listen or would they just block me out
It seems like every time I do speak my words never seem to come out right
Normally I say things that I never meant

But I can't change what I've said or what I've done
So now I'm stuck here trying to figure out
How to tell them exactly how I feel

Cause every time I turn around they think that somethings wrong
Even though deep down there is something wrong
But I couldn't bare them to know
Cause they would say all the wrong things

And they would try to help me or get help for me
Like someone has already done
Without my permission

Do you think by talking to someone I hardly know will help
Well you are wrong
Cause no one can take away this pain or fix me
But you don't even care

If you did care about me then you would respect my answers
Sometimes I wish people didn't care so much
But that will never happen no matter how many times I speak

I try to tell everyone how I feel but they just shut me up before I can say a single word
How can you come out and say that you're worried
When you don't even really know me
But I guess you will never change

I just wish everyone could get the picture
That I am okay
I swear that I am doing well

As well has I will ever do
Cause no one can wipe these tears away and make me happy
No one can take my pain away
I've built it up inside through the years

Its to much pain and its taken over me
What can I do about it
Nothing at all

Cause I know I'm okay
That okay is all I will ever be
Does anyone believe me of course not
So why do you think I don't tell you cause you don't listen to me

Trust me on this one no one can save me
Cause I'm okay and that's all I will ever be
Besides that if I wanted to die I would have already

Don't you get it
That I am scared to die
Apparently not
Cause you listen to my cries that has happened long ago

They just come back and haunt you
Don't you know that I'm okay
That I was crying because of something else

But don't even bother asking now
You assumed that I was wanting to die
Just because I was talking about suicide
Talking about it then crying the same night doesn't mean anything at all

If you could walk in my shoes then maybe you would understand
Maybe then you would listen to me
FYI I am okay and no one can ever make me whole again



January 25,2008