No, It's Not Narcissism To Think I'm In Love Poem by Maya Hanson

You have some kind of deadly charm,
this feels like a neverending dream
that must be why I can't control you
and lately when I go to bed with a heart too heavy to carry
I consider it an accomplishment,
a full day of longing for you or dreaming of you
I still don't know which is which.

You keep saying
thinking she's in love makes you feel like a narcissist,
I can tell you with no hesitation
it's not narcissism to think I'm in love
I've been falling up
and not because I believe in myself
but because I believe in you
and I believe in what you believe
even if it's not me.

Turn your back on me and I feel like a masochist once more,
spill your secrets and I finally get it,
I feel like a narcissist,
you must love me enough to trust me
and why can't that be all I want?

I sound the warning every time
but my kingdom still looks to you for the bleeding garnet sunrise,
everything standing on end.

This feels like a neverending dream
but I still can't reach the finish line,
the part where I can't smother this smile anymore
because you're always around.

There is homesickness tangled in my hair,
I won't pull it out because I want you to tell me it is beautiful,
I want it to fade or weave through because I belong when you're here.

You keep saying
hoping for love makes you feel like a narcissist,
I can tell you with no hesitation
it's not narcissism to think I'm in love.