Never Had Though Lost To Me Poem by Nontobeko Dlamini

To have found joy at last
And los the sorrows of the past
To wear a smile on thy face
For love and friendship thot i had
A simple 'hellow' my heart skipped a million miles ahead
With the invitation was eager to meet...
For he had ripped out that which pumped life to all the veins
I was wearing out in pains
A glance to rid of the agony
Meeting thee i could wait for eternity
For i am not letting this miracle pass me by
Waited waited and waited
For the hours seemed prolonged
Here he comes for this day i have longed
Life seems to spring anew
It is spreading through the veins again
A smile of affection on his
handsome face
To have to finely have it
A hug
How i wish i could cling on to this moment
To never let go
But the stop wasnt on me
But to some other place
I didnt want to know about
Sharp
Jabbing pain on my left breast
Though the smile did not falter
To hide that excruciating pain inside
He bed me farewell and another invite
With the unsunken smile 'i'll let you know'
He vanished
And was gone too soon
No tears
Wish i could let them roll down my burning cheeks
For i had forgotten how hot the day was
The heart carelesly put
Griddled clots to the veins
Though fighting hard to hold on
Finelly it burst with a low cry of
agony
The soul went lifeless again
Then the tears made that pilgrim
down my cheeks
Gudbye my love
For i never had you
Though lost to me