Love Knocked Me Down Poem by raff rafael

(Thank Jesus for Kerie Hilson)

Dear Jesus

Sometimes love comes around and it’ll knock you down.
Just get back up when it knocks you down.
Shockingly love knocked me down.
Jesus what to do now?

You sent this woman down and my heart is like wow I believe now.
Your love knocked me down.
Lord I would like too talk to you about this huge situation.
Remember you sent down this woman and my spirit started growing.

A friend of mine introduced me to an associate of hers.
We connected threw poetry humbly exchanging words.
She was nervous,
Because she didn’t know anybody.
It’s crazy Jesus how she was amazed by the wisdom in me.

She began to read my poetry then she took my poems home.
Shared my poems with her family then she wrote one of her own.
She seen me the next day and gave my notebook back.
She couldn’t stop smiling and reminding me to read what she wrote in my notebook that she gave back.

I remember I laughed to make her feel better when she got mad and began preaching to the teacher.
She loved how I exposed the soul that’s in her,
So she sat right by me in class too ignore the anger of the teacher.
She would always communicate with me no one could not make her stop.
We even talked about the poem she wrote in my notebook about the time her heart dropped.

She got a little sad,
But she was just opening up to me.
Daily I say R.I.P to Dawn her mommy.
Lord you had her on the phone with me expressing that I make her complete.
Constantly she keeps talking about her church to me nightly and daily every minute.

It seamed like her life was to serve you Jesus.
She would jump on my case when from me she sees ignorants.
Other females loved it,
But this one particular woman you sent said that my rebellious attitude,
I had too sacrifice it.
She said when she look in my eyes she can vision you Jesus.
She said that she dosn’t know why,
But it was something about my words that fits so good with hers.
We would text while we were in school.

We would talk while we were at home or while she was at work and Jesus she was so proud of me when she seen me show up at her church.
That day I testified my soul away in front of everybody read one of my poems shedding tears and I got saved.
After that her fluster family invited me out to eat and Jesus you know that day was a good day for me.
She even had her fluster sister and cousins on the phone laughing and talking to me and we finally kicked it like they were also my family the day they took me out to eat.

Her fluster mother was so proud of me.
Her fluster grandparents adored me and the rest of her family wanted her to be what she wanted to be to me.
My girlfriend or more like my woman.
Her and her fluster grandpa dropped me off at my house,
But during the whole ride we all was getting along conversing and this made her smile.

Jesus I thought I had true love once before,
But this was your love threw her and it knocked me down into being baptized now.
Months pass now for some strange reason her and I have tension.
We’re good with everybody else,
But towards each other we have tension.
Back and forward we would express to one another then we would stop.

We would be on the phone for hours then we would act like we’re not cool.
Sometimes Jesus she’s so stressful.
She’s acting like one of my Xs that’s so beautiful.
If she hear or sees me always chilling with another woman she’s gone to have a problem,
But now it’s complex to move on,
Because every time I try I would sleep deep and have dreams of her saying she loves me no matter what while she looks inside my eyes hypnotizing.

Christ I called you name so many times,
Because I wanted to know what Father God has planed out.
He sent her in my life and she knocked me down.
No lustful immorality just conversation and she got me like wow.
I can reminisce everything.

The memories alone are righteous blessings,
But Jesus she’s growing and their’s a lot I’m missing.
Jesus you know you can cure me more secretly threw her.
Jesus you know that I would wait for her,
Because now I’m real mature.
I love poetry that you give threw her and her pass is so horrific.
The stories she shared with me is something I wish too never forget.

She can disappoint me all she wishes,
Because Jesus from me she’ll receive forgiveness.
I’ll let her be who she feels she needs to be,
Because in my eyes she’s free.
Jesus she said she feels the same way about me,
But Jesus if it is real please make me believe that her feelings towards me are reality.
Jesus please interpret my romantic dreams about she and why are so many telling me her and I are mint too be?

Jesus do you remember when she said that when she stops talking to me she continually thinks about me?
Is that fact or fiction?
Is that synthetic or a blessing?
Once before it felt as I got my heartbroken I thought I had learned my lesson.

I found myself on the phone with my X reminiscing blissful memories.
I tried to hide it so deep the feelings I truly have towards the woman you sent me Jesus.
Don’t know body else understand how her and I was so cool.
Remember the times when she yelled out loud and proved “ Rafael I can’t stop thinking about you too! ”

We was close friends in school then things changed.
She said I make her feel whole then she said I make her feel insane.
I know a woman’s heart is a mysterious ocean.
Every time she embraced her heart to me I had her feeling like she was in a wonderful dream and everything she wished just all came to life as Gods blessings.

The only wish that didn’t is her momma still isn’t breathing,
But Jesus you chosen me too make her feel more relaxed about it.
I still think about the words she said to me on Christmas eve.
“ It doesn’t feel like Christmas,
Because my momma is gone and you’re the only one I can talk too now I’m sitting in the mall all alone.”

I told her “it’s cool too wonder,
But you still got your momma and I know you feel all alone,
But I’m going too let you know now I love you and I still got my momma,
So I can’t relate to you,
But your sorrow still matters forever I’m here for you.
I believe yet you can’t see the love like me,
But I’m going make you out of a believer.
Meaning threw me I’m going to show you the love that momma Dawn still gives you.
Why was it in your heart too call me?
Is it because you know I would listen?

Do you think your mom would send you somebody that can get you back into smiling?
You got to have faith that Dawn is protecting you from heaven and I have the best faith that Dawn is proud of her young woman.
Remember she always song to you Whitney Houston “I Will Always Love You”.
Jesus had her sing that to you for a reason.

Jesus seen the day that you would cry during a special moment,
Because you feam for your momma too make you laugh again,
So Jesus picked me out of everybody that said they love you.
Just to reveal to you that your momma will surprise you.”

Then Jesus amazingly she felt better.
I know for sure that your love knocked me down threw her,
Because I never met her,
But still I too sincerely also miss Dawn,
Amber’s mother.
Every night Jesus you see me praying to my family in heaven including you and Dawn.
I pray that soon you wipe the pain away from this certain woman.

Lord you know I try,
But Jesus you can do much better then me.
After she wrote me a poem I also gave her a 3 page poem I wrote her called “I See Your True Color”.
I received no responds,
So what else can I do too tell her that I love her for her.
Mary J Bliege said threw her CD that “I can only be me”.

It’s so confusing Jesus,
Because since that much she doesn’t shear her life with me over the phone or 3D anymore,
She still does in my sleep or you’ll have me too feel if she’s ok,
Because for her I constantly pray.
It’s like I can’t be myself by her I haft too hide so many things,
Because if I don’t she’ll again began too start apologizing to me.
She would say that she would feel so much guilt,
Because we don’t communicate like the sister sister twins in the old days.
Jesus I wouldn’t care if she places me in the friend zone,
As long as she helps a brother like a good sister over the telephone.

I just miss her love Jesus you know towards her I don’t get jealous.
She masters deep philosophy and Jesus you know that her personality will really interest me.
I remember of the time I told her that in any given second when she needs me call me.
Later when I was falling asleep she called me nervous and afraid,
Because she thought that I was busy.

When I talk to her I’m cool and collected minus confusion plus she gives me a boost of patience and her love threw conversing brings me closer to you Jesus.
She hated it when people vision her as a prize stallion like she’s a trophy wife or something,
But she loved it that I didn’t and Jesus you know I wouldn’t.
She wouldn’t do as I and repent in front of a live audience,
But she would repent to me and also secretly to you Jesus.
She say she wishes too feel like me,
Meaning living life with less doubts.

Well Jesus she wishes too be the man who truly loves her and who is so proud of all the curing she’s doing threw you to others even though she doesn’t cure me anymore.
Steady I pray for you to tell her so she can know that I’m cheering for her to save those lost souls.
I felt that I was I burden on her shoulders,
So I just backed away.
She said she fears dearly of hurting me,
But she can’t stand of finding out that another woman and I kissed and we wasn’t even going together,
But still she was hurt by it.

When I told her that now I am praying for one woman only,
She couldn’t cease repeating “Rafael who is she! ”
Then she admitted that she was getting a little angry,
Because she was thinking that the woman I’m praying for wasn’t her,
But when she found out that the woman I’m praying for too be mine was she,
She stayed on the phone with me for hours again expressing emotions and testimonies about why she believes that Jesus you are going too make us way more then just family friends and another situation that’s confusing is she said that I was one of her best kinfolk she ever had.
She said Jesus that you and I are mainly the only ones that can stop her from being mad and sad.
There’s plenty things too remember from her like when we were shearing opinions to each other threw a crazy debate.
Then in the aftermath we would laugh and she would say “your love is all it takes for me too enjoy my life,
Because the love you give me is the love of Christ Jesus that blesses me threw you to know that everything is going too be alright.

Rafael you influenced me to live my life absolutely for Christ.”
Jesus those were the good days.
Now only on Sundays I see and hear her sound.
Jesus I know you understand me.

Jesus you made me write a lot of righteous poetry for her that she doesn’t even know exist and hundreds of prayers I sent out,
Because Jesus you blessed her with the right type of love that knocked me down.
It has me asking you Jesus for help more then ever now.
Jesus all I wish too do is please our Father and cheerfully receive all of our Father’s promises that sent threw you,
Because threw your heart inside His I wish too be more proud.
I don’t know what blessings to me your going to send down,
But I do truly feel your love threw Amber Grisko and threw her your love knocked me down.

Love your brother,
Rafael

(Amber loves this poem a lot and I ask you all who also love this poem too pray to God to give joy to us while we wait for our desires. Thank you Jesus)