Let You Down Poem by misty wright

i know i could make everything better
if only i did this one last thing
i know theres other ways
but nothing else will work quite the same
ill never be me again so i want you to understand
why im movin back on to my old ways

im better off without your betrayl
you lied to me
and you made me out to be
responsible for your misery
im always reminded of everything you put me through
and when you came crawling back to me
i pushed you away

granted our relationship has grown since then
but i cant take it wondering
if youll be there for me tomorrow
at times i wanna scream how i hate you
and that your such a liar
that you make me insane
but something inside me wont let it out

i know i havent been completely honest with you
and i wanna let you in
on all the secrets i hold so deep
where do i begin......
im tried of lyin
and i blame myself for everything
im sorry i didnt tell you before
maybe if i had
then you could have saved me
i dont know how to tell you this
but mama i wanna die
i know you wont understand why
but i can only live in this darkness alone for so long

my fears came alive
and i made a decision out of desperation
so i took that blade
and aimed for the end
everything youd ever said came back to me then
and i knew id let you down again
but dont worry mama
for this will be the last time ever again
that i will let you down, i promise
just know that i love you and i always did
but this is the end to the story
of my messed up life.