Lament Of Innocence No.001 Poem by Wandering Vampire

In a sudden its happening again,
A boy's lost memories are coming in.
I have been here for so long,
But why i still cant go on.

Its a never ending nightmare,
I think im stucked in here forever.
Im lost in this broken road,
Walking alone guided by fast shifting mood.

Losing things i valued along the way,
I dont know why but they just runaway.
I dont even know what lies beyond,
Or whats left for me behind.

I began to walk without asking why im taking the same path,
Even though i knew that ill end up on the same spot.
The spot where im lying awake all night,
While counting the enemies on my sight.

Its a moment catching those falling emotions from the sky,
That tells me you cant make your gonna die.
And now here i am,
Pointing the edge towards my arms.

Should i let razorblades running on my skin,
And slowly cut down those remaining feelings.
Im so sick of this,
But why do i still have promises.

Im waiting for nothing,
But why do im still hoping.
Giving a chance that things may change,
That someone in this world can ease the pain.

If only you could touch my heart and feel what i feel,
And take away those blame and fears.
Holding me tightly even if its just for awhile,
I wanna feel secure in your arms.

Wearing back those sweet smiles,
And wipe this tears when i cry.
It feels so good when im on your side,
Whispering words that wont leave me behind.

But it feels like it wont happen,
Since no one believes me when im talking.
If only i could change the world,
I will undo things before it even started.