Kreuz (Cross) Poem by Angela Bontle Ditumiso

For the longest time I was
Playing hide and seek with my faith
Knowing where I stand
But being too afraid to proclaim it
In self-defense, I've always wanted to be neutral
Never wanted to pick sides (with people)because I crave peace
But lately I can't part myself and scatter my pieces
Between whether I'm Christian or not
Whether God is real or a fallacy
I'd rather be called an abacinated fool
Blinded by "religion"
"Brainwashed by people who couldn't wash my skin instead"
Whatever, I go with Christ

I remember when Thomas used to mock me
Laughing, rolling in grey ashes, laughing still
Asking me how I could believe in the God I've never seen
I've wondered how do you believe one is angry
When anger has no body
Don't we tell it from the actions, from the expressions and from the works?