Just Wanted You To Know Poem by Sabastiana Pressler

Some memories are so sharp,
They cut me like a blade,
I wish they'd disapear,
But they refuse to fade...
I remember all too clearly,
Being with you at the park,
I could see your smile brightly,
though the nights were dark,
Your words touched my mind,
Your love touched my heart,
Your hands touched me perfectly,
And I hated for us to part.
I remember you hands,
And your warm embrace,
The bliss I felt when you looked at me,
And the way you made that sad face,
We talked and we basked,
We said how bad we'd miss eachother,
How perfect we were and,
How there'd never be another.
I remember your voice,
And the way you said,
Things like I love you and I miss you,
But remembering brings dread,
Because I remember the promises,
And damn I wish everyday,
That I could still keep them,
Or that I hadn't gone away.
I don't know how,
But I know that I did,
Truely trust you and believe you,
Though sometimes that I hid.
You said that we'd be together,
And someday we'd be married,
But circumstances got in the way,
And dreams were killed and buried...
I'm sorry about what happened,
And I know it was my fault,
I should have known the consequences,
And brought us to a hault...
I don't regret loving you,
But the time and place was bad,
I will admit though,
That you were the best friend I've had,
You never really hurt me,
Like at first I thought you would,
And when I had a problem,
You almost always understood,
You gave me things I needed,
Like advice and a listening ear,
You gave me love and laughter,
And in my heart I hold you dear.
And every time It rains,
At dawn or in the late night,
I think of you,
But thats seldom alright.
I can't help but ponder,
What we could have had,
The things we left undone,
And oh it drives me mad.
But like everything else,
We had to end,
But even so,
To you my love I send.
And I'm sorry,
And I miss you,
And I wonder,
If you still miss me too.
Exactly how you feel,
I may not ever know...
And I think I'll be a bad friend...
Because of what I can't let go...
Because when I say 'hello',
And ask 'how are you? ',
Ill really want to say,
How much I still want you...
Ive always been resilient,
Forgetting all I feel,
But this hole in my heart,
I don't even want to heal...
So forgive me for my stubborness,
For holding on too tight,
But I had to tell you some how,
So I placed these words in your sight...
I'm not sure what I expect,
If anything at all,
Still the memories of us,
Make me trip and fall...
Life will engulf us,
Year after year,
And after drama and exitement,
I know your voice I'll long to hear...
Call me silly if you'd like,
But this is how ive been,
So if you ever think to ask me...
Just look at this poem...
I'm a hopeless romantic,
with too much love to keep,
To myself and a shy way,
Of letting that love leap...
Life isn't only love and feelings,
This poem is though....
because I'll love you forever,
And I had to let you know...
Well thats what's in my heart...
And oh I feel that should,
Apologize again because,
Poems like these don't feel good...
Its up to you and always,
Will be up to you,
If you still talk to me or not....
I really hope you do...