Its A Must Or Mental Poem by Dawn Lochridge

Probably today -I will light up that first cigarette of the day only tolay in bed all day.
Probaly a must - Well to be honest its a Mental must.
Probably today I will binge eat and try not to purge, starve myself, and eat when everyone gets in bed, it's a great chance I will purdge.
Probably a mental must- I self pity and turn into a opinionatedmaniac, it's all about me and talk and talk about the past.
Probably Mental fear of what the day has in store for me!
The traumatic childhood memories are always there looking back at me - with a smirky smile, reminding me of all my mental failures and everything I have done that is failed in my life.
Its a must not to let anyone know just how unstably mental I am. I
hide the anxiety that starts in my stomach while the sweating up my spineturns quickly to panic, I've already determined that it's mental.
I am trying to understand my must or mental issues that make me hateful, its definitely a must to get along well with others, Mental is all I know.
Probably die and no one would care.That is the truth, not pity but guilt.
Its a must to fix the mental stability!
But time is running out.
I know I don't have long and it's hard to say this but I am!
My only friends whom loved me, stayed by me are just a handful.
The family is just as few..
I am going out in the way a lady should without a great big deal.
Thanks again Mental this time you won all I do is worry if my children will be okay today, and safe tomorrow.
It's a mental - I can't explain when you loose all the ones that you love to a death.
Its a mental and a must- I can't make up for all the bad I've done or that hurt I caused.
It's a must- I will not have a pity party for myself.
It's a mental- and a must to decide if you can Accomplish the day.
Mental must-I will not be a burden on my children as they have their own lives to live.
It's a must and a mental- I will never harm myself again for the sake of my soul and my children and grandchildren.
Thanks for your judgement that you passed on me.
Its a mental must that I don't respond negatively to your hate.
It's a mental and a must- No matter what I will always keep you guessing about the reasons I write.
So much for all of the people who thought it was a personality of mine.
It's a must I tell you that I am not mentally insane. Just mentally bruised.
It's a - - - MUST TO KNOW THAT YOU CAN NEVER SAY 'I KNOW HOW THAT FEELS! '
YOU DON'T HAVE A CLUE,
Try OPENINGA TEXT BOOK - READ HOW THE HUMAN BRAIN AND CHEMISTRY ARE NOT AT ALL THE SAME.
It's a MENTAL MUST TO KNOW THAT YOU WILL NEVER KNOW ME UNLESSI LET YOU KNOW ME!
DON'T ASSUME ANYTHING ABOUT ME IS EVEN CLOSE TO ANYTHING YOU MAY HAVE BEEN THROUGH, OR THE PERSON I AM.
MY HEART IS SO BROKE, SORE, HARD.
I ONLY LET FEW KNOW ME, YOU MIGHT BE ONE OF THE LUCKY ONE'S.
IT'S A MENTAL MUST TO KNOW ME.
DON'T SAY ANYTHING PUSHY OR HARSH.
IT'S A MENTAL MUST TO KNOW THAT NOT EVERY ONE IS GOING TO LIKE YOU. ITS A MENTAL MUST THAT YOU MUST REALIZE I PROBABLY CAN'T STAND YOU.ITS A MENTAL MUST- YOU WISH YOU COULD BE ME!
ITS A MENTAL MUST YOUR JEALOUS OF ME.
ITS A MUST AMD MENTAL MUST-TO GET OVER YOUR OBBESSION ANMOVE ON WITH YOUR OWN LIFE,


Written and owned
D Lochridge aka Roxii Anne