Im A Suicidal Girl Poem by Jasmine Appelhaus

death is all she can think about
she contemplates the many ways
in which she can commit suicide

she pulls out a knife and slits her wrists
the blood flows from her viens slowly killing her
for she is like me
a suicidle girl
though i have not committed i have thought about it

the hell i live in
isnt worth living in
but the two people whom i care about will be crushed if i were to commit
though i havent yet commited i plan to
but only if im forced to stay here

my mom and her new husband...our 'new family' make me this way
being forced to bond with people i hate
not being allowed to be happy or be myself
its not fair for me to have to suffer
to make her happy

i shed tears every day at dawn unable to sleep
ive choked myself till i see nothing but darkness
but it never works..i have so little to live for
and yet i do
people say suicide is stupid..but if you walk a mile in my shoes youll understand

all i want to do is die
or go home..home to live with my dad where im happy...
but i have to wait for years till im allowed to leave...
and if its stupid of me to be suicidle well then its stupid for everyone to be living

no one understads how i feel...and now
im a suicidle bi-plar gothic miserable girl...

can anyone save me..break me free of this curse that was cast upon me
can anyone hear my plea...hear me cry out in pain...
no...no one listens to suicidle girls like me...