Im A Dreamer Poem by lil miss

i'm a dreamer & i dont need to sleep to be dreamin'
& swear to God, thats dumb luck
cos i been havin' trouble sleepin'
that's why i get f*cked up
before i meet with my demons
and when i wake up
i'm depressed for no reason
i feel sick in my gut
& i hate every season
the longer it lasts, the more the pain deepens
i feel like my soul's been battered & beaten
and there's nothing i can do to increase the peace
&
i dunno why i just repeat the cycle
cos the whole process has me suicidal
and i could reach out for help but my hands stay idle

.....i can do it on my own........

i'll be dreamin' when i'm asleep & not sleepin' when i'm awake
dreamin' with my eyes open is like a sleep that i take
cos i'm not conscious of my surroundings so it's dreams that i make
but i'll be grounded once i've found the dreams that i chase
that i don't even know if exist or if people can create
but i never lose faith
& i never give up
even when it appears that i'm so fed up
so messed up and so stressed out
still dress up in a smile before i step out