If Only Poem by Jessica Elizondo

The note says, 'Goodbye, may you have a better life than I. And may

the world not turn its back on you as it did me.' She puts the note on

her bed and sits down. She stares at the scars ans slits on her wrists

as cold, silent tears hit the floor. She thinks to herself how she let

everyone down and how much she failed in life. She blames herself for

it all, for her friends abandoning her when she needed them the most,

for her parents getting a divorce, and for the cuts on her on her arms

and the tears stained on her face. She hates life and looks at it with

dark eyes. She looks back on the horible things life has brought her,

for her little brother's kidney transplant that he despretly needed but no

doner was found. And now she stares at an empty bed across the hall,

for her pain that haunts her and her eyes that are never dry, for all the

dissapointments and lies that were fed to her everyday like a three

course meal, and for her heart that has never been healed just broken

even more......She stands on the chair as more painful tears hit the

floor. The moon light shines through the window like a spot light for a

show. There is a chilling silence in the damp, cold, moon lit room,

as like a silloet her shadow swings back and forth, and one last tear

hits the ground......if only......if only someone would have took the time

to talk to her instead of passing her and turning your head in the

hallway. If only someone would have had a heart to care for another,

and for her feelings instead of making fun of how she dressed and how

she wasn't like the other kids. If only someone would have dried her

eyes and taken a look at her wrists, maybe then you can feel her

pain. If only someone wouldn't have given up on her but instead given

her a hug, or just sit down and talk to her about whats bothering her. If

only someone could have told her its going to be alright and push her

forward and never let her give up. If only she could have had an

example of hope and could have seen the beauty and goodness in

herself and life..........if only............................if only....