If I Should Die Poem by topaz africa

if i should die now without apologizing to the people i love
that i have hurt in my life
would my soul be free
if i should vanish into the face of the earth
without telling the people i love how much i love them
would they truelly believe with all their heart that i
loved them so much that i could not love them anymore
that i loved them beyond the existing love
would i spend my after life wishing
i could have loved a little more
....a little longer maybe
would they spend their time left on this earth hating me
....hating me beyond the grave
for not being bold enough
to tell them the little thingz that mean everything
to a living human being
would they spend their time regretting ever knowing me
ever having to cross paths with me
if i should die this moment
would i wonder at the love that could have been
....if only i had found the courage to let that someone know
exactly how i feel
if i should be counted to those who are no longer
would i smile inside and say that mine was a life well lived
is it possible for me to have regretts when my time is up
would i rest in peace without...
...wishing...hoping...thinking...praying i could have done more
did i give my love freely
...willingly and happily to people who deserves it
if not, then im truelly sorry
i want to give all my love freely
but its so hard
maybe one day i will....who knows