I Wish Poem by fortunate thembekile xulu

i wish i could put a gun im head
so you could no longer hurt me
so that everytime you breathe
i don't hear those hateful words in your mouth
i wish i could get run over by a car
so that these scars may no longer hurt when i breathe
so that everytime you move that hand
it no longer strikes me
i wish that i never loved you
so that you could no longer keep me prisoner
so that i could no longer take your tortures
i wish it wasn't you that i called father
so that i may never know you
so that everytime i look in the mirror
i don't see the reflection of you
i wish... i never was