I'M Not Okay Poem by ESPN CHICK

I've got my heart broken once again and its not from anyone but myself
I know I'm not gonna be a perfect girl but sometimes I wish I could fly
So I could get of this place, fly out of my cage
It hurts so bad when you have no one to talk to and no where to run to
Can't you see that I'm not okay I'm depressed once again and it hurts like hell
You know I'm alright I promise
Can't you tell that I hide my tears behind my eyes and put on my smile thats not real
I've got this pain balled up inside and I want to punch the wall
I'm no okay
I'm never gonna be okay
Forever I will be alone sitting in the dark hurting deep inside of myself
You don't know what I've been through
I've been kicked around and stabbed in the back quite a few times
Welcome to my life
I'm hiding all this pain but in this writing I'm getting all of it out
I've been hurt and lost with no one there to help me
Well I'm not okay
You'll never know how I feel cause I know you don't understand what its like to wanna
break down and die
To wanna scream so loud and cry
Welcome to my life
I swear I'm okay
I promise one day you'll see that I'm never gonna be okay


written in Aug 2007