I'M Gonna Kill Myself Poem by Ramona Thompson

Looking in the mirror
So Plain Jane
So boring
Too fat
Too skinny
Completely and totally unlovable
No talent
Of no use to anybody on this earth
Tonight I think I'll do everybody a huge favor
Tonight for sure...
I'm gonna kill myself


No more holding on
No more holding back
I just gotta let go
Once and for all
Give my audience what they've all been asking for for years
My final act will be
To burn out rather then fade away
Just like the wonderful and bold Kurt Cobain before me
I will do tonight what I should have done ages ago
Tonight I promise you all
This time I'm really gonna go thru with it
Tonight...
I'm gonna kill myself


Please don't
Don't try and stop me
And please don't you dare shed any tears
Cos I'll just keep on trying till I get it right
Won't let anything or anyone stand in the way of what I want to give to you all
My greatest and most profound gift
On my webcam
I might even invite you to watch
As I place the noose around my neck
Smiling and waving sadly
As I fulfill this promise to you
Tonight I'm gonna do it for real I swear
Tonight...
I'm gonna kill myself


No regrets
No looking back
I don't wanna even be rememembered
Just forget all about me
The sooner the better
No grief
No problem
Don't even want a funeral
Just burn me to ashes and dump me somewhere
Like the trash that I am
Trust me
Someday you'll know that what I did tonight was all for the best
Leaving you for the last time
Softly whispering as I go
Tonight mom and dad your marriage will be saved
Cos tonight
This tragic event will bring you back to where you should in
In love deeper then ever before
Thanks to this promise I make tonight to keep.....

Tonight.

I'm gonna kill myself for your love to live again