I Love You...Right? Poem by Sandra jacks

I'm sorry,
because i've seen the way you act around me,
like you really truly love me,
I'm sorry because i know it's not an act,
no,
not in the least an act,
in fact if anything,
it's the polar opposite of acting.

You are the epitome of love.

I'm sorry that i've been lying to you,
Because God knows i wish I wasn't....[right? }
God knows doesn't he?
He would know something like that.

I'm sorry for avoiding the things you want to know,
because I'm scared of the truth,
and i know you're not but,
I just can't admit some things,
and you like to get so personal...
I l o v e pretending like I'm perfectly fine


I say it to you too,
'Yeah I'm great today'
or 'oh I'm good, you? '
You ask me if I'm sure,
'You promise you're okay? '

'of course '
or 'How could i lie to that cute face'

Truth is,
I
could
lie
to
that
f a c e

Truth is,
I
haven't
been
'fine'
or 'good'
for far
too
l o n g

Truth is,
I'd rather lock myself in a dark
cold
room
a l o n e

Then make you worry,
is that love?
yes,
it must be.

I guess I do love you.

I guess so.