I Blame Myself Poem by jade Slatyer

It seems like it was yesterday
When I walked the pathways that we shared
Back in those days when you actually cared
But that is a time that is completely obliterated
This is a mistake, reiterated
I just want to hide
when it comes to this
why didn't you tell me that i was wrong
why didn't you help me understand?
There's nothing that i wouldn't give
to have you look to me as your other half
If only I'd have one more moment of your time
I'd tell you how much i miss you since you've been away
But guess fate doesn't stroll that way
I blame myself for loving you
Because this emotion, this love has done nothing but get in the way
I guess this is a debt that i have to pay
I am sorry for blaming you for the love that i couldn't give you
I am hurting in the inside
But my pride will not let that be
I wish inside my heart, that you could see
That there is nothing that I wouldn't do
For you to get the clue
That your the blue to my sky
But now you the very reason a tear meets my eye
And I blame myself
Love should have had better control of itself.