I Ate Myself Poem by Ramona Thompson

Alone
Ship wrecked and stranded
No food
No drink
No hope of rescue
Whats a man to do
When hes left with no choice
I want to live
Live to see my family and friends again
But if I take that step
If I taste of the forbidden
Just once
Can I ever be the same again
Or will there be no going back
Once I go forward with my plan


What more can I say
I hate myself
Because
I ate myself


Dear diary
Day 4 has dawned
And i have began
My own doom
My path to live
If you can call this living
Little by little
Losing my mind
Eating away at my humanity
First a foot
Now a leg
Who knows
Maybe I'll be rescued soon
God save me before its too late
Don't let me end this way, no not this way


What more can I say
I hate myself
Because
I ate myself


Day 6 or is it 7
I don't know
Not even sure I care anymore
Whats the difference
I've just going to die here anyway
Or am I
What is it I have become
Am I still a man
Or am I now a monster with the horrors I have committed
Is it a sin to want so badly to live
Or is it a worse sin to just give up and die
To not even try
Oh lord I am trying
Took my other leg
Is that too much


What more can I say
I hate myself
Because
I ate myself


Not much longer now
Until the end comes
I'll either be saved
Or i'll eat myself gone
Whichever comes first
To me it has ceased to matter
For what I am now
Is but a freak with a head and a heart
Mmmm my hands smell good
Maybe just one won't hurt
So sleepy now
Will I go to Hell for this
Do they do that
Does't look like a rescue is coming anytime soon
So if you will excuse me......I have to go eat

What more can I say
I hate myself
Because
I ate myself