I Am The Perfect Disaster Poem by alma estrella

how is it possible that
i have become a perfect disaster
how is it posiible that
are love is something of the past
it was a waste of time for you it didnt last
how could something so beautiful
cut you so deep
i am your perfection
but i cant recognize my own reflection
how come i cant forget you?
your sweet kiss, your sweet lips
your sweet sensation
and now i stand alone
waiting by the phone
just stay with me, please
tears threat to take over
i can never be sober
from the intoxication of your love
never being able to regain what is lost
after everything after all i fought
against the current just to win you
so you can break me
making rash decisions one after another
but the though reminds me
i was just your lover
How can you say that?
aftre all moments we shared?
your cruelty isn't fair
leave me to die.suficate me.thers no air
I know i was something more to you
you recited it everyday
i guess ther were lies because here i lay
in the infinite cold
not being able to garb a hold of my reality, courage i have none
no more compassion left to love
how is it possible for the love of your life
to become your perfect enemy
destroy you.break you
Just leave me alone. i dont want to talk
just sit here. In fear
of what you have made me into
running away. running away faster and faster
i realize i have become your cheap imitation of a perfect disaster