I Am Loosing My Mind.. I Need Nature... Poem by Kasia Fedyk

Everything is stored in our minds
in this memory bank.
We forgive but most of the time we can't forget,
mind has a way of spinning on its own wheels,
separate from the rest of the body,
but it infects it,
mind has a mind of its own,
and all the time when the safe opens
without you even trying to go to that place
all the possessions just spill out,
each and every little thing
and you can't throw it away.
Sometimes I wish there was a special
eraser, one that would erase it all,
wouldn't that be great!
You're going crazy!
So what am I really saying?
You play cool for a while, at least
til the bank opens up, again without your permission,
so it seems,
one after the other, your possessions are brought out
you no longer want it but it doesn't matter
its yours, you have it.
those valuables you so much just want to share
no body wants a part of
they've got their own.

You try something else, maybe nature?
you give it to the trees
and they listen,
leaf may fall out, or one just will look at you in a special way, the branches might sway to the rhythm of your words taking your possessions one by one
digesting it,
signaling back,
trees have their own way of talking back
if you're willing to listen,
after all, everything that you have expressed so deeply
and shred it with the tree,
made you feel better
something was willing to except you gift
so you try the flowers next,
the birds,
maybe the river or the mountains
maybe the endless ocean
or the blue sea
after a while you start to notice something,
you loosing your possessions, slowly
the unwanted ones, the ones you have tried so hard
to get rid off, to forget.
You start to heal, maybe even see things in a different light,
God Bless Mather Earth!