I Am A Wizard Poem by Laura arwen

I lost the
energy to fight
for my hobbies
and for my
obsessions
The loneliness can
protect me from
everything
I'm too tired
of fear everything
because I can't
go everywhere
I must do
meditation because my
body and my
mind are stressed
I pretend to
change but I
can't do it
I don't know
what to do
in my life
because I don't
know what are
my abilities
In some moments
my thoughts are
very negative and
pessimistic
My persistent thought
is to buy
for others
In particular moments
I don't believe
in myself
My life can't
be expensive
In my bones
I feel extremely
lonely
Probably it's time
for loneliness to
guide me
I find peace
only in loneliness
In the evenings
I must do
meditation but I
have too many
books to read