First Night Out With My Friend Poem by Kevin BBK

We sat by side by side
The grass had never felt so nice to me
Even the waves were coming very close to allow us enjoy the sound of it hitting the shore
Coincidence or did I know about the moonlight, I don't know.
I only know the moonlight was dominating me, as usual I surrendered to it
I never realized that I was always watching her until my neck started aching
All her moves seemed cute to me
She picked up a phone call, walked away to answer it
Then as she came, mine phone rang setting me furious as I read the caller's name, I answered it
My blood immediately settled when I looked at her again
My heart hungered for a hug from her
I wish I could take her in my arms, but NO, I couldn't because we were ‘friends'
I wanted to tell her, "‘friend' please, I feel empty inside, hug me"… but NO I couldn't because we were ‘friends'
She picked up her lighter, lit her cigarette
Her arm touched mine…i felt something, something that I couldn't describe
Not at that very moment, not even now
I felt pain each time my heart pounded, pain because we were only ‘friends'
Her company had never been so painful
The whole evening I had other words on my lips but always said things other that I wanted to say
It was a torture, and I endured it with a smile
I tortured myself, hour after hour smiling and laughing at my ‘friends' anecdotes
23h30.. Let's go..
She went around her car..i went in front to reach mine still hoping she would say…
"Kev, a hug? "
But NO, she didn't.
My pain was unbearable, yet I endured it
I still feel the pain inside..5 days later!
However painful it was, the torture, I liked it because I was close to the ‘friend'
I am ready to endure it, again and again, even if it's more painful, just to be close to her
Until one day my friend executes me when she introduces me to her better half
I will fall…..fall apart into pieces……