Fear (I) Poem by Majid Mohammed

I took a wrong side turning to the dark side,
The holy water dripped down,
As my lips clowned,
Dried like the wooden brown twig,
Upon my egos big,
Turning into a monster of grimes field,
I tried and wanted to yield,
But the confusion of matter and confession leased,
Am i lost? That's the question depressed my mind,
Am i the half human son,
Or am i the dark prince,
Question after question,
Just to never find the answer to my intriguing obsession,
And i fell onto my knees with pain and anger,
Hate was all i could feel,
clouds of darkness above my head,
Which rained only blood of venom snake,
God! I said,
Is this a test,
Or is it a curse,
I for the moment am on the edge of a knife,
In fear of my life.