Fear Poem by katey farmer

fear dulls my mind
so i cant think straight
i pretend to be fine
like the fear doesnt matter
everyone knows its a lie

i love him so
this fear inside hurts
you cant begin to know
i dont know why im scared
but i know i need it to go

theres something wriong
but i dont know what
how did i last this long
im afarid i will mess up
and without a thought, he'll be gone

its hard to trust
i cant ever tell
if it is love or lust
all i know is i love him
as afraid as i am, i must