Execute Me Poem by John Paul Ang

I want to bathe in your light
hoping you to end my lonely nights.
Endlessly drifting in insomnia
Thoughts filled with nostalgia.

Staring at the blank walls
Shadows rises and falls
Forming images of your face
and I can now almost feel your taste.

The full veiled moon
Will be rising soon
To light up the darkness
That induces my blindness.

The loneliness is suffocating,
Air is thick, restricted breathing.
The anxiety i feel chokes me,
Missing you unknowingly.

As i wait for sleep,
I pray for this love to keep.
I'll again try to trade my soul
To make my heart again whole.

Reckless and endearing,
That's what I'm feeling.
Risking everything once more,
Another lifetime to ignore.

I require you as my lungs require air
It could only be okay if only fate was fair.
i have no choice, but to breathe toxic love.
it's the only thing i can afford to have.

You're both my self induced poison
and my life's sole reason.
The one that slowly kills me,
The only one i need completely.

Execute me as how you want to,
I admit I'm guilty of loving you.
Dont hesitate, pull my heart out.
and you'll never hear a word from my mouth.

If this pain is love and love is pain
Then death is the only thing i can gain
I know can never be without you,
I'm ready to accept that this life's through.

If loving you was a sin,
Then hell is where i should have been.
And the costly price of my redemption
Is only equal to your love's affection.

Cast your judgment upon me.
Pardon or execute me mercilessly.
Give your verdict swiftly,
and release me from this insanity.