I think of you with a heavy heart
Confused why it has ended like this
Why it has so torn me apart
To destroy someone without a second thought
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I wish I could overcome my demons
I wish I didn't get so sad
I wish I knew the key
To unlock the potential within me
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Who ate all the food
Fatty little you
Fat fat fat
You need to loose a few
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There is power in silence
But it can open deep wounds
Built by everything unsaid
Toxicity is always fed
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Life is like a board game
Which I do not want to play again
Everyone else seems to get it
But it does not interest me one bit
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There is a spark of hope that is now here
But why does it fill me with such fear
It is just a small flame struggling to stay alight
But this slight warmth causes a massive internal fight
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My heart aches when I think of you
To feel safe in your loving arms
For you to hold me close
This is what I want the most
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When I think of you I feel gratitude, love and loss
These bring a mix of warmth and pain
They have not lessened year after year
But their intensity causes me fear
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Was it really abuse?
I mean damage was done
But only behind closed doors
Where no one else saw
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As my eyes focus and it becomes clear
I feel the emotions so familiar
Sadness, shame disgust and hopelessness
Form a knot in my chest
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