Don’t Worry About The Unheard Screams, I’ll Be Ok I Promise Poem by Kellyn, A Grau

Exploding in a rage of loosing self comprehension
My memories make me and my heart shapes my individuality
I am a loner, someone who dose not follow
But I am a source of pain and desire
I learn to shape and manipulate thoughts
To try and protect my self from any signs of pain
Don’t worry if I appear distant, its only because I’m healing
Don’t ask me why I put my self threw this, I just cant help my self
I was born to endure many kinds of pain, from emotional to physical
But it wears a whole with in my soul
And creates and emptiness with in my mind
Is something missing? Am I lacking a persona?
Am I just not able to be cared for and loved?
Did I do something in the past to curse me?
Or have I been banished with a morbid fate
Are my eyes distained to bleed so many tears?
Is my heart forever plagued with unheard screams?
I’m sorry if I appear to push you away but do you blame me
I have been broken, and bruised so many times
My minds forever locked up in a web of fear
I’m still swimming in sorrow and drowning in insanity
And the snow is tainted with my fresh blood
The wounds so deep I can see the bones
And the stitching isn’t stopping the constant flow
You’ve pulled my heart out threw my back
And stabbed it several times
Forgive me for keeping my distance now
I fear the abuse brought to my soul
The wings are scared now and can no longer fly
And my bodies now dismembered and bloody
Have you ever seen so many wounds on just one arm?
Have to ever seen so many scars locked up in someone’s heart
I’ll quite my whimpering and silence my pain
I’ll submit to the master who sold me my name
Created by love and destroyed now by rage
I am the creation of true love broken by betrayal
So clip my wings and throw me in chains
Locked up my voice to keep me silent
You’ll never hear the truth uttered from my lips anyway
For you never listen but only hear me
I am favored by death and longed by lust
So don’t mourn for me while I die
It was my fate to never be exposed
For who I really am and who I was suppose to be
I am alone and shall remain locked with the same fate
Till death decides another fate fit for me
So until my sentence I’ll forever be lost
In a sea of unspoken words and unseen dreams