Do You Understand? Poem by Jodie Louise Pollock

Loving you was like a drug,
To get my fix I turned into a thug,
For I loved you, you were my world,
And I always believed I was your baby girl,

I had never felt anything as strong as those feelings,
I felt like me, my heart and my mind were bouncing off the ceilings,
And as we bounced from wall to wall,
I just knew there had to be a downfall,

But when you touched me, my legs grew weak,
And I just knew I was in too deep,
I knew I would never be able to leave you,
Even though that’s exactly what I had to do,

For I knew you would cause me such pain,
And that I would only give myself the blame,
I knew deep down that I shouldn’t hope,
For I know if you ever hurt me I just couldn’t cope,

But my feelings are too strong,
To me they just didn’t feel wrong,
But when I look into your eyes,
I could see that you were telling me lies,

I didn’t know what the lies were about,
But I just knew I had to get out,
I had to rid myself of your grip,
Take your hands from around my heart so that you could no longer rip,

You tore my heart away from me,
And even though us are no longer a we,
You still have it in your hand,
And I still love you, do you understand?