Do Not Message Me Now. Poem by Oualid Alamghouz

Do not message me now

Do not send me your message now.
I had hard times
You were not there.
Where were you when I needed you so?

I was in a hospital. I did an operation. I sleep in the hospital.
My health is done.
Where were you when I needed you so?

I told you that I'm full of problems and major issues are going on in my life.
I told you that I am depressed. And did you care?

Do not message me now. Your message I do not read.
Your crocodile tears I do not need.
Please leave me a lone.

Blood, smell of hospital and you were not there. Even a telephone call is difficult for you to make. I'm sorry my friend I'll leave and never have you back.

Diffirent Medicines I took. The medicines will kill what you did not kill.
I'm done just enjoy.
A lot of money I borrowed. Who is that person who will give the money back?

I have a problem of economy and you know it.
I leave alone and you know it.
I do all by myself and I told you.

You have added to my sadness. I'm all dark now. Foggy and about to sleep forever. Do not worry I know nothing about happiness.

What do you want me to do now.
Put a bullet through my head.?
Commit suicide.?
Jumk on the mountain to the rock?
Drink poison?

I won't do anything. I won't kill myself. I still have a lot to do here.
Centuries to live and people to change by people.
Do not worry I never trust the trust.

All I want you to do is, please leave me to hate you today.
Do not message me now.

Oualid, @
February 14 2018.