Dense Fragments Poem by Casey Gochnour

Let me out.
Let me out of this endless prison filled with hopelessness and doubt.
Let me out of this unending nightmare!
Release me from this life. It’s not fair, it’s not fair!

Nothing seems to work, it never works out for me.
Forever tortured by fear, can’t you see?
I’m dying to break out, to get out of this life!
I need to get away, to rid myself of this strife!

What good does it do me to live another day?
Just to hear more pain whenever they say,
“You’re worthless, you’re not what we need,
Can you do anything right? ” The words make me bleed.

Let me out…
I’ll keep saying until it happens, I’ll even shout.
Let me out of this dreadful day, let me out of this dreary night,
I want to live a day when I can get things right.

For what reason is there to live if not for myself?
What good is it to not live for yourself?
One reason I live even now, how could I have forgot?
I must have been so scared she went right through my thought.

You see there’s this girl I know, more than just a friend,
We work well together, we’re the perfect blend.
She makes life worth living, and I’m starting to see,
Why I’m still here, why you read these words from me.

I’m not saying I live only for her, but she makes it effortless,
Yes, I confess, she relieves my life’s stress.
Her love so empowering, and mine for her,
Romance so strong it makes my heart stir.

But truly are my children the ones I live for?
The ones of my future, the ones I adore?
I love them already and they don’t even know,
I just want to see them and watch them grow…

I must stay strong, if not for me, my children,
Our children… I hope she loves Ben.
God, how I love her and all that she will be,
And with love so free, she loves me.

You know, I’ve come to see through these bars,
The walls are gone and I welcome the stars.
She shines with graceful radiance through barriers I’ve made,
So close to my being, all of which I’ve prayed…

She loves like no other, and it’s easy to see,
I don’t want to be let out, I need her with me.
Not for her love, but because I love,
Because she is the only woman I think of.