*death Of Me/Not Ready When You Are Poem by Christopher's Dead

How do I forget,
I feel beside it yet,
That you're the one who hates
Despite all the discretion that we make
For ourselves,
And I'm the one who delves
Into the unknown Dis
Of both our emotions running from this
Do you hide
And make me feel inside
And unquenchable thirst
Have to remind myself that you're the worst
Thing for my brain
And the best thing for my heart
Guess this is how the end starts

Why do I regret,
Do you see my point yet,
You just made me a fool
Into thinking being with someone like you
Is what I want
When all you do is flaunt
My faults at me the more
Those other guys, I know now that you're just-
Take back those things you said
I don't hate you and I'm not dead
So much that's lodged up in my head
Just from all the things you fed me

You have become a living ghost
In my cold berated scene
Splattered paint that takes the most
Out of my hope to redeem
Myself within your judging eye
I sit within your hateful skull
Ignoring you and you don't mind
Forgetting all I meant to you

We walk in parallel steadfast lines
Toward the same portentous blow
I put my head down lest I try
To satisfy your thirst and girl it shows

You never wanted to be with me ‘til the end
And here's to never looking at you no more
I'm gonna pretend you don't exist
And hope it kills you
It didn't have to be this way but I know
The farther I move from you
You're really the more satisfied
And I want to die

A lost love letter and a drop
Of consummated sweat and tears
What will I miss the most that I lost?
The things I feel when you are near
If it was just the way and how
You innocently bled for me,
Something neither of us can get back,
We'd still have friendship as release

I see through you right to the bone
But your eyes never will meet mine
Unfortunate on me you have grown
When you're not looking I am, and it shows

You never wanted to be with me ‘til the end
And here's to never looking at you no more
I'm gonna pretend you don't exist
And hope it kills you
It didn't have to be this way but I know
The farther I move from you
You're really the more satisfied
And I want to