Dad, For You Poem by Dakota Ellerton

Today is the day we remember you
and everything you’ve done
no matter how many games I could beat you at
your always number one

I remember you for your smile
and the loving kindness that you had
towards everyone, and everything
we all love you dad

There’s words I wish I had said
so you knew before you died
who I really am,
the person that’s inside

Every night I see
me standing by the hospital bed
you reaching for my hand
while I cry and dropp my head

Dad I have to tell you
something I want to say
You never really knew this / you never even knew this
but your daughter turned out gay / but you should know I’m gay

You always told me everything
we had a million secrets no one knew
that’s the way it’ll stay
just between me and you

Dad do you recall
the letter I sent to you
you sent me millions in return
all saying “ daddy loves you”.

In the letter I bitched and cried
about how bad my life was getting
now I spend my nights and days
crying and regretting

I shouldn’t have gone to the extreme
and tried to die at my own hand
because really in the end it seems
you got the worst of things dad

I hope that you can hear me
and all the words I say
dad we all really miss you
every single day

I miss how you would laugh
and tell stories everyday
about your family and friends
of course in a good way

Rest in piece until the day
that I can come join you
just one last thing I need to say
it’s that I love you too.