Cutting Ties Poem by Maya Hanson

Sometimes I wish
I could cut all my ties.
Leave the light on,
sweep out the door
If you caught me I'd
leave you hanging,
minutes to keep you
from wanting more

Maybe dreaming
is the best place
to find people I love,
to repress the black
After so many years
of waiting in corners
I'm running and
never looking back

People who choose
and they choose
and they choose
people other than me
Oh, I'd want you if
only, if only, if only
If only I wasn't
who I choose to be

But I am and I'm sorry
and maybe come back
when I could possibly
be fire like her
But I'm not and I'm sorry
and maybe come back
This reasoning's
getting absurd

Sometimes I wish
I could cut all my ties.
Be reborn as a girl
not a wallflower
Sometimes I wish
I could erase myself
leave a blank page
on the table beside her

I know cutting ties
would leave me a shell
Cutting ties would
waste me away
Maybe it's better to
strike out on my own,
but I love your firelight
too much, I'll stay