Confusion Poem by Elizabeth U. Adams

What goes around comes around
I've heard it said again and again
Yet even expecting that
Cant take away this dreadful pain
It isnt really that painful
Actually it doesnt hurt me a bit
Im just stuck wondering why
Why I had to take the hit
How is it that you can lie
Over and over to me
Then you decided to come right out
Said you had to set yourself free
Then you told me you love me
Hello? ! ? Cant you hear your own voice? ! ?
You never stopped and thought
About your own messed up choice
I never said for you to find someone else
Hell, I never said for you to mess around
I never said for you to leave either
But you were no where to be found
Then you said that I am the one you want
You dont want anyone other than me
Well if that is true as you say
Then with me you would right now be
You told me after that not to be mad
How can I not be mad? Are you totally dense?
Dont be mad when youre leaving me in the dirt?
Dont be mad while you go on and jump the fence?
Damn this is so totally unreal
But you must need some serious professional care
Because I dont know what your problem is
But something aint right up there
You threw the word love around like trash
Then ask me to trust you
Trust? Do you even know what trust means?
You must take me for a total fool
Trust? Love? Faithfulness?
These are all words of a love that is sworn
But you took these words and made them nothing
Made them words of nothing but scorn
I hope you think of me every night
And I hope you realize what you threw away
I hope you are miserable
Each and every day
I know this might be harsh
But what do you want me to say?
That Im happy for you?
And to go and be on your merry way?
I dont know why this all happened
I dont even know why it went this far
But it did and its done
And all it will leave is a faint scar
I could have done you good
You would've been set
But you wanted something more
And that's what i hope you will get
A lot more headache
And a lot more pain
Shoot! That is all i need to see
To see you hurting once again!
So yes, I'm confused because you aren't helping
You can't even shed any light on this matter
But I know I'm better off without a deadbeat like you
Cause there isn't anything here that you can shatter
Not my life, Not my hopes, Not my dreams
Nothing that you can take away from me now
Cause you can't even touch this
And if you think that i am boasting,
Nah, boo, it's just another vow.