Childhood Lost Deep Inside Darkness Poem by yashika R

I never realized that I grew up
And my heart is beating lub tup
But I still want to be a child
And mild
I am forced to change my dressing sense
And everyone looks at my Flaws with their lens
Even small mistakes blow out big
And I just feel sick
Because of stress
Its because of my dress
I don’t know how to get back myself again
Because this feeling gives me lot of pain
I feel like crying out
And I am having a big doubt
I don’t know what happened to me
But I feel now I am not free
Some thing is bothering me a lot
And I am caught
With this teen age
I am in a cage
I am just waiting for that one day
And find out my way
I am not able to find out my happiness
Because I am filled with sadness
I cannot bare this in my mind
God please be kind
I don’t know when will smile come in my face
But there are many ways
Even when I go out this feeling is coming at the back of me
God please give my happiness key
And don’t make me wait
I want to enjoy my life like when I was eight
My heart is full of burden
Its like living in lions den
God please don’t allow anyone to hurt my heart
With their pricking words and show out their cruel part
Its like stabbing my brain
And after that whatever they do to bring me back goes in vain
I am not even able to laugh at funny jokes
But I have to keep up my hopes