Cant Smile Poem by kate Emma

My whole life I’ve felt like something’s missing
So deep and hollow inside
Never feeling like a complete whole person
It feels like something in me has died

Looking for the thing that helps
To make me feel so complete
But the fight has gone, theres nothing left
Its taken 20 years but I think im beat

Theres something inside that wont let me
Have any real fun and smile
Theres nothing inside me that makes me feel like
Im a person whos worth the while

Im a failure, worth nothing, everything I do
Is never ever good enough
Is this how life is supposed to be so hard,
So difficult, so depressing and so tough

I want to be happy if only for a second
All I want is to feel whole and worthwhile
But most importantly what I pray for everyday
Is for once for real to be able to smile