Cancer Survivor Poem by Ramona Thompson

Coldly I sit alone
Facing another night of living that I don't want or need
A waste of on me this miracle has been
Never wanted to live this long
Don't know and don't really care why Jesus has let me
I just know that I want it over
The sooner the better
Can't happen soon enough as far I'm concerned

Every day is just another step closer to reaching my life long goal of at last
Planting that final nail in my coffin
R.I.P.
Oh please, please Jesus
Soon let this old man's deathwise be

Should never have stayed around this long anyway
Useless really
I'm so far gone in years
I know
I really have nothing left to contribute to today's society
Rotting in my casket is all that I have left to live for anymore
Very disappointed and about to give up hope that there's a god at all
Left to listen to me

I would try sucide, but I'm not quite sure
I wanna know what Hell feels like
Vices of which I have many have served only to betray and prolong
This most hated thing that I call my life
One more day of this
I swear
I just can't take

So if anyone up there is listening tonight
Here I go
Gonna try this
One last desperate time
Shouting out in a whisper
The plea of an old man way past the prime of his youth
R.I.P.
Oh please, please
Someone up there
On that golden stair
R.I.P.
Please, oh please
Let this be

2008 Ramona Thompson